Friday, 20 January 2017

50 Facts About Me And My Mental Health

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I wasn't planning on writing this post. The idea kind of just came to me. So I wrote it. I personally think that's the best kind of blog post. The spontaneous, I have no idea where this is going blog post. A bit like my life actually... although that's no problem to me! 

Anyway, I've gone completely off track. I was going to do an updated 50 facts about me post. But then I was like Nah, there a bit odd school now, they don't really fit with the vibes I'm going for. Ya know what I mean, like? So in a pure gold, lightbulb style moment, I thought I would do a mental health version. 

In a nutshell, this is basically 50 facts about my mental health. An odd concept, I know. But I think it works, kind of? Does it? Who knows? Don't know if you guys will actually find this interesting at all but it was kind of therapeutic for me, writing everything down. Maybe in the future instead of having to explain my mental health story each time to different people I can direct them to this post! 


1. I currently battle with OCD, health anxiety, depression and emetophobia on a daily basis. 
2. They all pretty much feed off each other, it's kind of like hell 
3. My OCD started as a result of a build-up of extremely stressful events which all happened at once in my life 
4. I've suffered from emetophobia and health anxiety for as long as I can remember 
5. I've been diagnosed with OCD since June 2016 
6. Although I've performed OCD compulsions and had intrusive thoughts ever since I was about seven or eight 
7. As a young child, my OCD was centred around the fear of if the door was locked or if the smoke detector was on 
8. I also used to keep my fingers crossed all the time in the fear that if I didn't something bad would happen
9. I've also battled with my weight and eating difficulties. Although never diagnosed, I know I was suffering from an eating disorder. 
10. I've suffered from countless amount of panic attacks over the last few months 
11. I've been on two types of antidepressants 
12. I'm currently on 100mg of sertraline
13. As I write this ( on Christmas Day actually), I'm currently waiting for one to one CBT. 
14. I've been waiting since October and can't believe the waiting list times 
15. I've been on a group therapy course though for my OCD 
16. Although helpful it wasn't successful 
17. Since being diagnosed, I've written a fair few blog posts about mental health 
18. I've also run a project on my blog called #SpeakUp where I let other people share their stories with mental illness 
19. I now volunteer as a communications advisor for OCD youth. A charity set up by OCD action 
20. I'm part of the YAP 2017 and oversee website, video and social media content 
21. Since suffering from mental health issues I've experienced a lot of stigma and discrimination 
22. Which has made me incredibly passionate about raising awareness and reducing the stigma that surrounds mental illness 
23. I wish that being taught about mental health was a compulsory part of the education system in schools and colleges
24. I've had to contact Samaritans, and I'm not ashamed of that 

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25. I have written a lot of guest posts for other people about my mental health struggles. Which I've really enjoyed 
26. I hope one day to spread awareness of mental health problems via video content 
27. I've made so many friends through the mental health community on Twitter, who I love very dearly.
28. I've had some fantastic opportunities of working with authors to promote some amazing books about mental health.
29. Telling other people about my mental health struggles is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do
30. I'm lucky that I have an amazingly supportive group of teachers who understand and support me through every day 
31. My mental illnesses stop me going out and doing the things I want to do
32. Mental illness has left me feeling very lonely and isolated 
33. A day doesn't go by where I don't struggle with my mental health 
34. Unfortunately, I've always had the predisposition to suffer from mental health struggles as my mum has also suffered from both OCD and depression 
35. I'm confident about the future and my mental health though 
36. I'm optimistic about starting CBT 
37. I look forward to meeting the rest of the YAP and other bloggers at meet ups throughout the year 
38. One day I would like to be able to come off antidepressants altogether 
39. I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that I'm ill 
40. But just like you wouldn't be ashamed of physical illness. I'm not ashamed of my mental illness 
41. I hope I continue to reduce the stigma and spread awareness via my writing 
42. My dream would be to appear TV to talk about mental illness further, to reach a bigger audience 
43. One day I sincerely hope that there is no stigma around mental illness 
44. I recognise that recovery is not a straight road. 
45. But I'm prepared to fight and battle against the demons in my head 
46. I won't let mental illness define me
47. I want to overcome OCD and all my other mental health struggles 
48. I won't let OCD stand in my way of doing what I want forever 
49. I believe I am strong 
50. Just like I believe everyone reading this is strong and can overcome their demons too. 

I hope you have enjoyed this post and learnt a little bit more about my mental health. If you want to do something similar to this, please do and send me links because I would love to have a good nose.

 Thanks for reading, as always X
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11 comments

  1. What a brave post! I'm also taking sertraline at the moment, I've tried others but this has definitely helped with some compulsions. I'd also love to get involved in your SpeakUp project! xx

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  2. I loved this post, I feel very inspired now :)
    Amy xx

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  3. This is a lovely post, I hope one day you will get the opportunity to talk about mental health on TV.
    Róisín
    totallyro.blogspot.ie

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  4. That was an amazing post, I hope you will get to go on TV and talk about mental health. It will help to end the stigma around it
    Róisín
    totallyro.blogspot.ie

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  5. This was amazing and you're so brave putting it out there! I struggle with a lot of what you've mentioned and rarely speak out about it for fear over what people might think! Currently not taking any drugs for it, but having to rethink about that one as I've been really struggling the past week!! I'm so proud of you and sending you all the loves! I would love to get involved with your SpeakUp project! x

    Victoria | VictoriaaHelenn

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  6. I admire you so much as a blogger and person. I struggle with anxiety and I although I am able to more or less have control over it, at times when I feel it is getting the best of me people like you, kowing or not, are doing ones you inspire me to keep fighting. Thank you for writing this even if it's just simple facts.

    All the best,
    Celeste

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  7. Wow, what a fantastic post! I think you're so brave (and strong!!) to face your challenges and stay determined to overcome them. It's great that you recognise that the road to recovery isn't linear. I know so many people get disheartened by the rocky journey but it's important to never give up fighting. Thanks for writing this post, I'm sure so many people find your openness about mental health inspiring
    xx
    Tasmin | www.grandiosedays.com

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  8. You ARE strong and brave! Loved this post xx

    Blessings,
    Edye | Gracefulcoffee.com

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  9. Really admire you for this post nicole - I also suffer with health anxiety, and emetophobia as you know, and I really do understand the struggle that comes along with it. Hopefully the cbt therapy is something that can help you out, best of luck with it!

    Lucy | Forever September

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  10. You are indeed strong, Nicole. You will recover and build your life on better grounds, and you do help spreading awareness through all your posts here and on twitter. It's good that you aren't ashamed and also don't let your mental illness define who you are, but as a temporary part of you.

    great idea for concise, flowing posts that tell a story about you.
    I share your opinions about fighting stigmas, and also suffer, like you, with anxiety, emetophobia, depression - and other illnesses about which I discuss on my blog.

    Never hesitate to reach out - you got my contact info on twitter & blog. Hugs & light

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